Wassup yall… hehehe
Sunday night now and I’m bracing myself for the next 5 days at work. That brings me to the title of this entry. I am bad at following the authority at work, but yet again I am good at following rules. Confuse? yes me too.. hahaha
I think I like to be my own ruler. Set up my own way of doing things and I want things going my way. Well, who doesn’t?
Anyway, I am OK if someone exercise his or her power fairly. I, for one, am not into exercising my power to show my authority. If I am a leader, I could see myself getting down into the dirt, roll up my sleeves and join my sub-ordinates. Could this means I’m losing my point of authority? I don’t think so. Do good to others and they will be good to you. That is my belief. My petpeeve is when someone tries to show that he/she has the authority just because the title says so, but they did not earn it.
As I said before, I am bad at following my leader. I think part of it because I am independent in what I do. A lot of time, at work I would do what I seem good for myself and the company of course, but not to my leader.
I don’t like to run to my boss when I have issue. I want to handle it myself. I don’t like to complain to my boss, but I would rather face the issue and offer solution. Some people might prefer to go through the boss, then the boss with bring it up to the big boss. Not me. I would bring the matter to the person with real authority and power. Hahaha… That is why and I notice it, that I often ‘disrespect’ my immediate boss. But no harm done. Problem is solved faster, just at the price of my immediate boss’s pride.
So far, I can count with 2 fingers, my bosses who I catagorized as effective managers. The rest.. FAIL! They want you to report to them, be the first to hear your complain, and hopes it does not leak out to the big boss.
I’m whining about this because it happened to me that instead of getting praised for my good work, I was blamed due to my boss’s ignorance in the matter. He was angry that he was not the first person to know about the good news. What the haaiirr?
Anyway, things never end with me 
I always have things up my sleeves. If they think everything is smooth sailing with me, then they are wrong.
Keep up with me, or else.. see ya!
Long live middle management!
Oh dear.. It’s monday and i don’t feel like starting anything or doing anything.
It seems not fair for Monday that most of us feel this way. Is it because of lazy Sunday?
In that case we shouldn’t be lazying around on Sundays? ggrrrr
Weekend is always amazing. I think the only unamazing about my weekend so far is when I stayed in Brussels and do house chores.
Last weekend was great. I went to Disneyland Paris with 2 KIKA colleagues. This morning as I took the same route as last saturday morning, I’m re-living the moment.
I barely slept due to excitement.
The train was at 7:30 and I’m up and about at 4am already. Took shower, and got sandwiches and brownies prepared the night before.
at 6:30 am i’m already at the train station hahaha
Anyway, it’s lucky that i don’t live in Paris. Otherwise I would go to disney every weekend!!! hahaha
If i have the disney passport then the expensive part is the train tix huhu
it’s after lunch now.. oh dear dear.. i really don’t feel like doing any work. I just wanna go out in the sun and play!
While at Disney, we were imagining what it is like to work at the Disneyland. I’m sure that you will not look at the place the same way. Would I have Monday blues? I think I would like to work at the shops. You are never alone anyway. There are always enough people at the shops. So what kind of trouble you could get. Yeah you got some kids stealing for sure. And I don’t think that they put barcode detector at the shops. but then who cares.. it’s not your sweets anyway haha..
I always have this thought of working at Disney each time I got back from that place. If only I am a student and living in Paris, then I would want to work there.
Heck, even to pick up garbage, doesn’t matter
hahah this is how low my motivation today! hahahaha
oh well..
Seriously I don’t know what do you find in Twitter.
As for me, it made me falls head over heels with the person am tweetting with.
I’m not going to reveal who I’m crazy about in Twittah, but he’s a celebrity LOL Even worse right? I know I know.
This person would probably never tweet me back but it reminds me of the feeling that I once had when I was a raging hormone teenager hahaha
Will i see him today? Will he smiles at me? Will he talk to me?
The questions now are, Will he tweet today? What will he tweet about today? What kind of comeback that I should give to get more tweet?
At one point I am happy and so glad that I have found my husband. I know that I will always see him, he will always talk to me, and smile at me.
For that I am forever grateful LOL
OK going back to this anonymity at Twittah.. I was just wondering what it’s like to receive hundreds of tweets a day.
For sure he will have no time to reply on each tweet.. For sure he will ‘accidently’ skip your tweet. So why keep tweeting? It’s like talking to a wall hahahaha
But then again, the feeling of getting back something although it is not personal, brings smile.
As long as he tweets and in this case, send you TWUGs.
That’s the power of Twitter 
This is a saying in french that means everyone has his/her place in the world/soceity/community/Universe. People often ask me how I managed to live in a foreignland, and not in Malaysia where I was born. How I survive the long winters, the language, the food and so on… My reply is simple: Everyone has his/her place, and I am where I feel I belong to. I am not saying that I don’t remember my root. Remembering/cherishing your root is different from living your life. You can be an African living in Greenland, or in my case an Asian living in Europe. I am not saying I am unique. My brothers and sisters are the living proof that this thing happened all the time. I have friends who are on the same boat as I am. Then au contraire, there are people who just want to live in the cocoon of their own roots. There is nothing strange there. I won’t ask those people to go out and experience different things, because that is not what they want. Let it be…
My first experience in this is when I was finishing highschool and I was eager to futher my studies overseas. But then there is a schoolmate, who received more and better offer than I did, and she refused all the offers and said that she wants to further her study locally. At first I was dumbstruck by how stupid she was. But then as I have been to other countries, I could see some of my comrades failed the foreign surviving tests. As for myself, the moment I stepped on the foreign land the first time, I grew a set of wings! These wings had been progressively growing, and I am proud of it
Sometimes it is funny to see people just can’t survive, but on the other hand, I can’t survive the system back in my home country!!
So as I said, chacun sa place… You just have to find your place and be in joy
Peace.
I was thiiiiiiss close to reach the American soil. Damm you swine flu!!!!!
I don’t how bad it is now with the swine flu since I did not really watch news or follow any news as a matter of fact. But it really affects me big time. Ggrrr
I suppose to go to this meeting in Chicago this week. But it was cancelled at the very last minute. Like a day before I take the flight. Seriously how close I was? huhuhuhu
Even Josh was there (last week though) but hey.. he posted vidblog from Chicago! huhuhu (see josh blog link at the side) I managed to cancel my hotel, my train tix with no fees but for the flight it has 50 euros cancellation fee. Which it is not me who has to pay it hahahaha
Anyway, I should go to work tomorrow like any other day, like normal Monday. Again… damm you swine flu!!!!!
Should I see this as a way of saving my life? Or are we scared out of nothing? Am I like skipping death? hahaha ok I am going over board.
Without noticing, I am actually looking forward to be on the American soil again. Last time was 10 yrs ago mind you. Really…. 10 years???? Shit! What was I like 10 years ago? Younger for sure hahahaha… but I must have been stupid, NOT.. Naive, Maybe… Excited, Definitely. Geez.. as far as I know I feel the same now as I was 10 years ago. Is that good or bad? hmmm
Anyhoo… I don’t think that the meeting will be re-scheduled any day now. The client told me that for North America we might have to settle with vid conference. Can you imagine what the organisers and the hotel feel? They could have a big meeting with 100+ room booked, and now they are down to zero!! Damm!! And I thought I am the most frust person in this story. NOT. OK that makes me feel a little bit better. Misery loves company. So deal with it.
I’m all Visa and nowhere to go. Sux!
Guess I look forward for the meeting in Vienna. Sigh.
Looking at the bright side.. I avoid risk of getting the flu, I could manage my projects that are in crucial time this week.
Hope for sunny warmer day. Chicago can see me next time.
and soon shall be Spring cleaning.
So, what am I going to whine about this time.. argghh I keep on forgetting to snap picture of the smoothie I made. I need to update my kitchen blog too…
There are so many things going on and to do that I almost loose my head (and my brain and my patience). Just have to keep things rolling and rolling and going. Most importantly is to keep myself intact! That is a bit hard, but I’ll try.
I still have the boxes in the living room since the first day I moved in the apartment. Seriously I just don’t have the courage to do them.
Been to the US embassy for my US visa, but then I kinda forgot to ask the guy when I should expect to get back my passport with the visa. Dammit! So I hafta call them I suppose.
And where am I going? To Chicago.. yes the Windy City. I will blog on that when I have my visa and passport back in time *gulp*
Nope I still do not have my resident card. Which reminds me to call the commune to reschedule my appointment. tra la la…
Job? It’s getting tougher now that I suppose to have the whole control of the projects. I keep on reminding myself that this is what I’m looking for. To manage projects. I am just 2 months, and I have a lot to learn. I just hope that I do not let go all the good experience that I had before. Things that when you say that you will do it if you’ve been given opportunity. I have to think of the bigger picture, of what this experience might bring me to.
Entertainment? Not much as I am on a tight budget. Though I wish to go to the cinema, and also to do some shoppings!! huhuhuhu
Anyway, I’m happy as long as I managed to keep my head and body together. hahaha
That’s all for now.
Appt.be is still looks the same since the first day we moved in. Meaning that the stuff are still in the boxes and the boxes are right where they are since day 1 LOL. Seriously I don’t have the courage to unwrap every single glass and plate and clothes. Maybe one fine day I’ll store everything.
Cut my hair, yup I guess winter is over and the hair is just getting too long. I always thought that I want to tie my hair up, but at the end I just don’t like to tie my hair. So I decided to cut my hair. No worries, the cycle will start again when winter comes.
So here is my latest haircut. 
Work-wise… I just hope to grasp as much as new info that I could. Today I had this major client issue and I must say I handle today workload very well *Pat myself on the back*
Just that at the end of the day I had this issue and my supervisor was explaining to me so fast like a TGV Nancy-Paris. On top of that I had to put it all on email to client. I understand the general idea, but there are certain details that needs some pondering. For my supervisor, I can understand that it’s hard to handle 3 needy people at the same time. The other 2 are already at the point of fighting against each other for attention. LOL. I just couldn’t be bothered with childish act.
Oh well tomorrow is another day….Laters!
Today celebrates 1 month that I am here… Did I feel like this when I am only 1 month living in Nancy?
I hope to get everything settle as soon as possible. Really hate this transition phase. Hope that could just skip it and be on normal mode.
I must say that I miss everything - from the chocolatiers, to boulangeries, to the butchers, the poissoniers, everything at the market, and the list can go on and on. Hmm… did I miss anything in Malaysia when I moved to Nancy? I think I missed the KLCC cinema and food (of course). I don’t remember that I missed my butcher or supermarket hahaha… OK I’m goin crazy.
I wonder if there is a market anywhere near here. I suppose there is weekend market or so. OK I guess it is just too soon to whine….
My patience started to run out. All 4 new PMs have been given more than 1 project, while me.. still zero. If I start compare, I started to get panic attack. Psyched. I reasoned with myself that it is a good break for me, and that I could use the time and energy to concentrate on other stuff like my moving and settling in. I just don’t get it… Hope my waiting will be a fruitful one. Fingers crossed.
I’ve met the landlord at the apartment after work today, and the apartment is almost empty. I started to see our stuff in the place. I can’t wait to move into the apartment and start a normal living. I mean this aparthotel is nice. But it is temporary. Everything is still in the suitcases.
At work today, less tense and I managed to leash the fun-side of me with the other members. The person who everyone’s scared of and kind of holding us back is not in today. One part of me is kind of disappointed that I didn’t get the recognition but at the same time I’m kind of relief that there is no stress and work pressure. I would rather take my time slowly, rather than climbing the ladder too fast. It allows me to take some times to settle myself in the new place. I think I’m going to go the cinema tomorrow after work. What say you? hear hear!